i don't need another catalyst to my curviness

Honestly, a few things happened last week that I wanted to blog - or rather, vent - about but I couldn't because after one thing happens another.

My band will be having a music camp and a concert night associating with it. The disappointing part is the concert is on the day that I need to went back to Kedah. I want to perform for that night sooo much. It's like a once in a lifetime experience. I couldn't say if there will be another one in the future. I could vent on this longer but the feeling is gone. I no longer feel mad or sad about it, just merely accepting the fact that I can't change fate.

Going on a happier topic, in a few days, my cousin is having his wedding reception with maroon as the theme. Since we were notified late, we decided to attend wearing brown. So that got crossed out of the shopping list. 

Next year, two of my cousins are getting married and one of them who is a she, will be having two different event with different theme. The first one is purple,and I tried to look one for that but I couldn't find anything that interest me so I'll just wear my sister's clothes that she doesn't want to wear. The second theme is pink which I got my hand on a fabulous light pink with gray embroidery baju kurung. I feel so happy getting my hand on a perfect outfit. The last one is gray themed, which I bought a patterned baju kurung and a little bit of green and red spots. I don't like dark colors so my objective is to find a gray outfit with vibrant colors like pink or purple or yellow or red or green. But the ones out there is always so monotones. I don't work with monotones. And that's the best I can get.

But I realized something during the search for the perfect outfit, I don't like modern baju kurung. Yes, it shows a lot of curves of someone but I already have a bold curve I don't need another catalyst of my curve-ness. The perfect one, the pink one is a kurung pahang and I immediately fell in love with that cut. Kurung pahang 4LYFE!

Uh-dicted

Following up a congratulatory post with a congratulatory post seems... too much for me - but Imma do it anyway.

When holiday started - well, before holiday started, it was around the time of the year where my curiosity and burning passion and spirit for watching animes and playing games is at its peak aka exam week. I hate to be honest to myself about this but I don't concentrate much whenever exam is around.

There were always things to do, idea to come up with, animes to watch, games to play, stories to write and the list goes on. To add to the lazyness, I was never the type to study early. I like to procrastinate. That's my game.

So aneyhwayh... when I was at that moment of the year, I had this intense urge to watch Naruto.

Yes that Naruto. Now don't judge. Hush it.

I started with the naruto when he was still a kid and that season was like 100+ episodes and most of 'em I've watched plus I don't like watching something I've watched - unless it's like awesomely magnificently bombastically worthy - so I'm like, "Fuck this. Let's skip 'em."

So, while my urge is still immensely strong, I started on naruto shippuden - the older, grown up, teen naruto. Since I've never watched it before, not even once, I was expecting enthusiastically for every episode to unravel. There were new characters and stories that made me even more addicted to it. 

And then without realising, I reached the 50th mark and then soon the 100th but later, I realised, there were about 200+ episodes and I'm like...

So I took a few weeks break. When holiday really starts and I was bored to death, that was when I regained my intense urge to finish the anime before this year ends. If it's not this year, then I won't be able to catch up with it at all next year. 

To be honest, whenever someone or anyone is at the current episode go, "Hey, have you watch the latest episode? You know when blablabla...." I feel like a noob, all left alone still catching at episode 60 something. 

sad-weeping-rookie-writer

I should be posting up another drawing challenge - even though I know no one's going to see it anyway which makes it even better. But I won't and maybe if I do, it will not be any time soon. Today, I'm gonna have my congratulatory post on how I finished my story that I was planning to finish by the end of
November.

I did it and felt very relieved. It wasn't satisfying how the end had become. Yes, the U-Bomb moment is so very cute. My readers like it and so do I. But I left them hanging. Do Hara end up with Jaehyo or Kyung? And what happened next to the EunCo couple? They did have a happy ending but that's not my style. No one deserve a happy ending without heavy-problems-that-could-tarnish-the-relationship-and-make-it-so-klise-yet-it-won't-because-that's-not-how-i-do-things. There are a lot more events that is going to happen but I had to cut it short because if I don't, the readers will be spending their time waiting for a story that will never get updated for a year.

There I go turning my congratulation post into a sad-weeping-rookie-writer that isn't satisfied with her story's ending.

Yes, I deserve that slap.

Well anyway, I'm going to do a sequel to that because good happy ending without bla bla bla.... ain't me. I'm a pain in the arse. I know. 

Drawing Challenge: Day 7

Mah favourite word~~~~ ehmmmm.... this is hard. I use a lot of words everyday, if you haven't noticed. And thinking back what word I always like ALWAYS say is hard. There's so much word, so many memories, so little brain capacity. And as I grunted in agony, anger and frustration I said that word, "What duh fak." Just like Mozart's little light bulb twinkle when he gets an idea for his next great concerto, mine shine like it never did. This is it, I said to myself. DUH WORD.

I draw a meme! Wow! I know! No, I drew this because I think this explains the use of the word to me very nicely. Not that obscene meaning of fuck or the middle-finger. Just an expression I use when in joy, in rage, in grief, in all different way I can feel of. 

Please, I'm not that rude.

Drawing Challenge: Day 6

There were a lot of books and manga that I've read since I was little. My father had been very strict on us reading even if we were at an age where we're barely able to know ABC. So, I thought of a character that bring the most impact on me, that I could still remember until now. Harry potter should do the trick but the challenge doesn't allow any movie character. Bummer.

And then I remembered this anime called Mirai Nikki and the female character was as bad and delusional as hell. She made me felt like killing and...

but liking and pitying her at the same time. She's a tsundere that's what they do. They do shit, fuck with people's life and mind and then smile like she's innocent and all.

Okay, I will continue with the drawing. Drawing challenge Day 6 - my fav book character (this is in manga and anime okeyhh)

I'm quite happy with my drawing but resemblance wise, I fail so hard. She actually look like this...

Don't let this bitch fool you. She isn't as innocent as this pic tells you. She kills people, her dad, her mom, and even her alternate self.  

i'm watching you, Yuno.

Party Hard on Writing

I think the drawing challenge had been a real help in making the blog come alive. I guess that's the only reason I blog here 'cos I'm a bad blogger. I don't blog about my personal stuff as much as some other blogger did. And even though I like heavy topic to write about and debate, I hate getting myself in heart ache and drowsy at the end. It also takes a lot of time to write. That's why I ignore and avoid nasty comments, tabloids, rumors and such unless it's for my own good. So, I've been thinking that I want to take up on a writing challenge, a story a day or write something based on a picture. I don't know, there must be something out there because I've read a few people's stories based on this challenge.

this will be funnn!

Okay now I shall go and wait for the PC to be left alone to upload my next drawing challenge. Bye yeom!

What? I ain't leaving this blog until I left some gifs.

that's how I roll

Desert

I'm laughing at myself as I read my blog posts. LOL 10 posts in one month? Wait until band starts, and this blog we'll be deserted like Sahara. Seriously, I'm not even metaphoring there. Like really.

like a desert

You see all those cracking earth? Yeah, that's how this blog will be in 3 weeks or more.

Drawing Challenge: Day 5

I think I've finally got my inspiration and motivation when I look at the list of the drawing challenge again. At every challenge it was as if I can see what I want to draw.

I can predict the future?

Aneyhweyh, the 5th day drawing challenge, my bestfriend:

My sistaahs! This is a tricky challenge. I kept thinking whom I'm going to put up here? There are Aini, Jevine, Nadia, Sab, my flutist pals, my cousins and so many more. Then I ask this question: Who do you tell about yourself more to than anyone else? And so I answered, my sisters. We for once like to gossip around, and that leads to sharing secrets and stuff. Secrets and stuff that even my long long long freaking long known friends dont even know. 

SISTUH POWAHH!

lolkbye

Drawing Challenge: Day 4

I've actually drawn this before I went to Kedah- like somehow I can already sense I'm not going to be able to update the drawing challenge.

Thus, for drawing challenge Day 4 (yessh I know it's supposed to be day lalala already) I present you my favourite place.

Do I know this place somewhere? A secret hideout maybe? NOO!

This is just my imagination. And I love it so much, I sometimes feel like setting out to search for a place like this. When I'm sad, or melancholic, or feeling romantic - after watching those romantic stories - I pictured myself on that swing, looking at the sky or sunset and just poured all my feelings out.

Hey, the challenge didn't say anything about it being real or not.

Eargasm

I know I should be posting my drawing challenge and should really catch up on it, but I have so many things to do. There's finishing that story by the end of this month, then doing chores then catching up on animes and so on. And still with all of that going on, I NEED to share this awesome rap compilation from my favourite group, Block B's rapper and leader. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                

I can go on for days by just hearing his raps. This is eargasm.

Dance in the Rain

I know I've been gone for so long. You see ah, last week, I went back to Kedah for my cousin's wedding. Only me, mah sis, mah bro and dad went back. Older sis had SPM to go to so mom cant follow along. Our family side theme is purple and so we were like proudly purple-ie at the time of wedding. It was quite nice, being held in an indoor hall and not outdoor. It's like rainy season this time of the year, and I oppose if anyone consider doing outdoors. You want us to dance in the rain or wut?

Anyway, it was a good get together event. The day before the reception, my uncle told us that his daughter is gonna get married end of next year, and so is his adopted daughter and so is my male cousin and lalalala.... wow everyone had grown so much. People are actually starting to get married. I feel old and young at the same time. You know what I mean?

Alright, understood.

11:04

Aini and Lisa came to my house yesterday, for some gossiping-girls time. There were a lot of topics that came out unexpectedly from my sister's mouth. She's TWO years younger than me and she has more juicier gossips than me and even boy problems! I am forevarr gonna be a loner~

forever alone T.T

And then, there was the topic of the day, oh-the-freaking-band-camp-is-freaking-near! There was a post on the groups wall about a band camp around December and I'm like 

And then they were like, "it's gonna be huge!" "it's so different from before." "this is it guys. the ultimate band camp." "maybe it's somewhere at *insert a certain camping site*." "holy shizzzus!" and I'm like, "the happiest moment of ma lyfe." I'm not gonna say anything in detail 'cos there weren't any info confirmed yet but I am so  looking forward to it.

Drawing Challenge: Day 3

3rd day challenge commanded me to draw my favourite food. I had a hard time choosing because there's just so many delicious and amazing food to choose from!

And then, as I raid my fridge, I saw this wonderful, almost heavenly- no, it is heavenly, sent by the god of food - chocolates!

I can't, never could, ever resist the temptations of chocolate. Even if I'm supposedly in a diet or having fever and my throat aches, chocolates always have their way with me. Therefore, it is my favourite food of all time.

Drawing Challenge: Day 2

Ollo... Imma continue today's post with the second drawing challenge. My favourite animal ish of course a cat, meowmeow~

I'm quite happy with the result this time... a lil' more cute, isn't it? HOHOHO... *selfpraising*

12.33

Just now, I watched this awesome movie called, Hart's War.

It's a good story and of course any Bruce Willis movie is a good movie. I like the storyline, really really enjoy the storyline. And there were tear-jerking moments yet the ending was done nicely. It wasn't clichely ended with the hero's victory and the bad guy's defeat but it was flowed nicely. But I do have some trouble with the plot twists, the conspiracies and so on. I had trouble finding who is the good guy but that's what make the story fun because it's unpredictable. It's heavy with a lot of meaning. I'm not selling this movie but just sharing my thoughts. And I specially looooooooveeee the eyecandy. ;)

Drawing Challenge: Day 1

So today is the first day of my drawing challenjiii... I drew this last night and gave it a few thoughts. Is this ugly? Is this me? Is this ok? I don't want to draw something that's not me and usually I like to draw something with details but I decided to layback on this challenge. Imma draw sumthin cute and fun. Although I doubt this first drawing is fun.

I know I suck badly *cries*

11.01

I'm not a good blogger, I sweaaaarrr~~ and I'm not the type to share much of myself. I'm a scorpio, you see and that's how we rowwwll.... I'm starting on this blog to post on my drawing challenges that I hope no one sees it because it sucks badly, I sweaaaaarrr~~ again.

And now that I've accomplished my horrible introduction, I'll shall end this post with a nice bye